the where.

Today I skyped with him till 3:26 in the morning.
It was a glorious 3 1/2 hours.
I wouldn't trade them for the world.

While we were talking he told me how people had asked him if I was "the one."
I asked him what he said back,
but immediately caught myself.
I knew what he was going to say, but I wasn't ready to hear it then.

We continued to talk.
Then he told me how whenever he's with Kylie they ask what temple he wants to get married in and where he wants the reception.
He said his reply was anywhere my wife wants it.
That it is up to her.

So I told him Timpanogos temple and my backyard.

He said that he'd know what to say if they asked again...

empty

Being three hours away is hard.
Harder than anyone knows.
I want to just sit and complain about it all day, but I know that I won't get anywhere with that.

I just have this empty feeling inside.
Like I'm not myself.
I hate it.
I hate it.

But then I found out that I'm not alone.


Erik feels the exact same way.

don't measure up.

Today was kind of a downer day.
Erik is amazing.
I am not that amazing.

He deserves someone a lot better than me...
He should go find someone better than me....
I secretly hope that he doesn't leave me...
even though he should.


But,
I know he won't.
Because he is loyal like that.
I feel like he will never run out on me.
He will always treat me like a princess.
Even when I don't deserve it.

listener.

One thing that i love about erik is that he actually listens to me.
And cares what I say.

I feel like so many people are so close minded, and not open.
All I want and need is someone who will listen without judging at all.
Erik fits that description to a T.

Today I really opened up to him and told him about my grandma.
How I miss her so.
How I wish she were here to listen to me.
I miss my grandma.
Erik reminds me a lot of her.
He understands.
And it's the best feeling.

Run away and never look back.

I want to run away.
Far away.
Away from confusion.
from problems.


But I can't do that.
Erik helped me realize that.

Even though times get tough,
we can get through it.
We need to have faith, and patience.
It will all work out.

Marina.
Don't freak out.

It's all going to be okay.

Lady Antebellum - Just A Kiss